first and for most im happy. happy because the thing that has been my constant dread for the past years is over. no more going to bed so depressed on sunday nights, coz i have to wake up for school the next day. no more going to school on monday morning scared as hell because i never did any of my homework during the weekends. no more thinking about all the excuses i can think of just so that i can skip school. i no longer need to take the longest route to my class just to cut a couple of minutes of class. no more sitting in class hoping and praying for that one teacher to be absent.. (she never is though ). no more having to put on that hideous piece of clothing we call uniform. no more having to tie a freakin ribbon on our heads( i still dont see the point of it, but whatever) . no more thinking of all the ways i can hide my transcript so that my parents dont find it and kill me for it. no more rushing to complete a folio or peka that we all copy from each other anyway. =.= no more getting punished in class for never keeping my mouth shut ( i love talking ok) . no more teachers constantly comparing me to my siblings, namely my younger sister who seem to do so much better in school than me. (whatever im over it) . no more teachers picking on me for no reason. (ok maybe sometims they do have a reason, but it's almost always invalid)
but then i realized that all these reason that i hated school for, ended up becoming the reason i loved school. like for example, the constantly not wearing ribbons, i kinda enjoyed pissing of the prefect because they had to constantly hound to wear my ribbon.( sorry to all said prefects, no hard feeling aite?) . and using the long way to class? i LOVED it, it meant more time for me to spend with my besties. that teacher they never seem to miss class, i ended up loving her and her whole weird antics! and somehow being the constant 'rebel' in school, made me well ME! people soon accepted that that was how i was and nothing was going to change that. the teachers that i once hated, i soon started to like, i respect the fact that they were willing to waste their time and energy trying to make me a better person, and i like to believe that maybe not all their effort was put to waste.
and school wasn't all bad. there were the constant good that i look forward to everyday namely my friends. and i mean all my friends best friends, good friends, casual friends, acknowledgement friends ,EVERYONE. i liked coming to school and meeting and socializing with everyone. i mean where else am i ever going to meet so many awesome people in one place?
besides that i would say school was sort of our shield. it protected us from all the horribleness of the "outside" world, it shielded us from reality. in school we were protected. our teachers were there to cater to us, to help prepare us for what's outside. there were no real consequences for our actions in school, we get punished yes, then what? nothing. and especially being in an all girls school, i dont believe bullying existed. i sure there were the constant cat fights, but nothing serious. so school was our safe haven. sort of.
when we go to college there will be no one to protect us. no teachers to guide us, no one to clean up our messes. in other words we are on our own.
i also feel like in school, we all somehow have become a community. working together in such a comfortable rhythm. yes things like "class rivalry" exist, but stuff like that is only temporary. we are all friends in the end of the day.
and don't get me started on my class, five zamrud! i mean we are literally weird. we have all sorts of people in our class. i think if i were to eleborate, it waill probably take two days to complete this blog.
so i guess what im trying to say is, now that i think about it, school wasn't that bad after all. it gave me merories for a lifetime. it gave me lesson i will never forget and it gave me friendship that will last forever.
so SMK CONVENT KAJANG, IM GOING TO MISS YOU VERY MUCH! :)
(my last post as a school student! )
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